I realized that I haven't blogged in.. a long while.

I try to on tumblr but I'm always so afraid of being judged by my friends. But sometimes I just need to get it all out.

I hate my school. I hate how I always feel so lonely. I hate how the only person who makes me feel alive and makes me feel like I'm not a worthless piece of shit is 10hours away from me. I hate that I cry myself to sleep and no one even knows it. I hate that even if they did, they probably wouldn't even care. I guess I hate a lot of things right now and part of me doesn't even understand why because I want to be happy. It's just so hard.